I'm 27 years old, I have a three little babes, Dylan "4", Jonny O "3", and Dallas "1".....I'm engaged to be married next month, April 10th, I'm getting married in a field at the foot of a hill that has sooo many memories...My fiance, Jonny, is the nicest guy you'd ever meet....really. I don't know how I got so lucky, and I really do believe it was luck meeting him....maybe it was just supposed to happen that way...
Anyways....I got into photography about 9 years ago....I mean REALLY got into photography....I've always loved photography...I grew up with a little 110 film camera and would take it with me on "journies" with friends when we'd ride buses to the beach and such. My mom really got me into I guess, she's the one who gave the camera to me :) But I started working in a photo lab called Wolf Camera when I was 18, then it closed and then I got hired at North County Cameras in Escondido, and then it got bought out by Calumet Photographics. I worked at that lab for 6 years....I loved it....I processed all of the photos and met A LOT of really great people and super talented photographers....Some I got to know really well....dated one, lol.....and worked with them on weddings......I was always interested in shooting, I just never thought I'd really do it for other people....I never thought I was good....sometimes I still question whether anyone really likes my work or not.
I quit working for the photo lab after I had my second son, me and my fiance moved to be closer to his work, and I found a new job as an event coordinator...which by the way, is not my "thing". I was already on the path to doing photography as well....The company laid me off, which I was really thankful for...because then I could focus on what I really loved....but at the same time I found out I was due to be expecting a new little girl in my life :) It was tough trying to balance two boys and one growing inside....I thought I would have to give up photography for sure....I shot everything I'd already booked, booked more....and decided after having my little girl I would take a break, although that didn't really happen the way I'd planned...I started shooting for another company....it wasn't my own....it wasn't what I wanted to shoot...I did it though because I liked who I was working for, felt potential and LOVE photography.
I started becoming uninspired, unmotivated, disappointed in myself....I didn't feel it was worth leaving my children for....I decided in the beginning of the year I would start shooting for myself again...but I've been really overwhelmed trying to plan my wedding so I wanted to make sure I didn't book anything 'til after mine, that way I could really focus on whom ever wanted me to shoot them....I've been setting shoots up that will help inspire me, where I know I'll feel good, and working it around a really simple and basic schedule....no pressure...I've been reading a lot of other blogs too, although it doesn't help me with my blogging skills they definitely inspire me....Jasmine Star....is my all time fave right, why couldn't I find her sooner? I'm for sure gonna try to attend any seminars with her :)
I was in Riverside shooting last week, and shot a few of these, I'm starting to feel on track....but I decided I would take everything really slow....I've been tuning up my "style", if that's what you wanna call it...maybe I should say "skill"...I love doing this and I wanna always love it, I'm not going to do it if I don't like it anymore, there's no point. It's not just work and what I shoot isn't just a picture.....This is my passion and these images are pieces of me....it's all extremely important, I've figured it out now, well I'm starting to anyway.
After this walk up and down Mission Inn Blvd I felt really good, I felt really inspired, I wanna go back up there to shoot.
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